Life is an emotional rollercoaster. There is no way to avoid it, and there is no way to get off of the ride.
It’s strange and maybe it’s because I’m a woman and my hormones are completely uncontrollable but I am emotionally and physically exhausted from life right now and I am trying to figure out how to recharge my batteries and am unable to come up with a way to do it.
I sit here wondering how do as humans we so quickly lose sight of the important things and zero in on the petty things.
The past week I’ve fought and cried over lack of hot water, I’ve gotten angry at Adam for demanding so much attention. I’ve been jealous of Brian for being able to find time to play World of Warcraft and unwind. I’ve been fighting the emotions of being a failure after really re-evaluating my photography and if I am ever going to be able to take it from a hobby it into a successful business.
Then I was reminded yesterday that none of this matters.
I had to go into a funeral home for a visitation.
The Father was on vacation in Mexico with his family when he was swimming in the ocean with his sons and was pulled under. He drowned and died leaving two young teenage boys and his wife. This March Break vacation has turned into a tragedy. He was 49.
While talking to his wife (who Brian works with) she said “it really makes you want to hold your loved ones a little tighter when you see them” When she said that she turned and looked at her two boys who were being so strong and were more composed then I was.
Does it really matter that my floors are dirty or the dishes have piled up? Does it matter that I didn’t have hot water for 4 days?
I have my health and I have my loved ones. I have a blessing from heaven who makes me laugh even when I’m crying.
Just a little perspective for the day.
